I really wants to be the Sophia I use to, I simply hate the life I'm leading now!
I hope I would be able to make the right path....
Sighh
Speechless =[
Although I have no idea what you used to be. Maybe you're a reverse physcology, who wants to be more badass like you used to. Whatever it is, it ain't worth to regret for.
Believe me as I've been this through, just take it as a long experience lesson learned, because we are still given the opportunity to change.
For 3years I've been slacking like a waste resource, and just a year ago, I thought about it like every single day that it even hunts me in my dream! Regretting for what I've done or didn't do. Why the hell I turn out to be this way, this useless good for nothing. I used to be better.. Regretted, sigh until the last string of hair drop. "Why and how the f*ck I turn out to be such garbage". I seriously don't do any sh!t, the closest near to be a hikikomori. School, room, school, room that's my daily life style!
Seeing people of my age accomplished at highest level got degree in every subject, winning trophies and medals like getting their daily bread. Turn out that even 7years old ar-mo girl speak English thousand times better than I do. Humiliation indeed.. Then something hit my head [I think it was the bird sh!t back then.. Anway]Ringing in my ears, telling me I gotta break this wall, I gotta get out from here and see the world! And I did! From that day on, just like the joker, I put a Smile on ma Face! Recently I just travel Europe continent. I think I did quite a huge progression already! Good thing I still got enough to buy biscuit the following day I'm back SIN. The point is I'm glad that I'm still able to find back alittle of myself.
1 thing I found out is that there never was a righteous or anguishing or fu*kingsh!tarse path. You only think those were bad or good. Who knows, it might be the path that you need in-order to grow and find your true-self. Still continuing searching, but atleast now I'm more confident and honest to myself.
Btw the moment you think that the route that you took turn out to be crap and want for a change, you already take a step into a path that you think its right. Good Luck walking it to your paradise. Maybe someday you can tell me is that really your right path?
sh!t so late now, I like writing a poem! Maybe you should give me this blog, like I need it more than you? lols!
Wait wait can I change? I want this poem to be beautiful. ahahaha!
"The point is I'm glad that I'm still able to find back alittle of myself."
I would like to buy a "Point is I found a brand new me!"
- You only think those were bad or good I only explain if you take the bad part.. If you take the good part, lucky you, but it might turn out to be your greatest weakness during long run, unlucky u. =<
Do whatever you want. Be urself and follow ur heart, Don't force urself to do thing that u dont like..Let me see the sophia i use to know!
ReplyDeleteAlthough I have no idea what you used to be. Maybe you're a reverse physcology, who wants to be more badass like you used to. Whatever it is, it ain't worth to regret for.
ReplyDeleteBelieve me as I've been this through, just take it as a long experience lesson learned, because we are still given the opportunity to change.
For 3years I've been slacking like a waste resource, and just a year ago, I thought about it like every single day that it even hunts me in my dream! Regretting for what I've done or didn't do. Why the hell I turn out to be this way, this useless good for nothing. I used to be better.. Regretted, sigh until the last string of hair drop. "Why and how the f*ck I turn out to be such garbage". I seriously don't do any sh!t, the closest near to be a hikikomori. School, room, school, room that's my daily life style!
Seeing people of my age accomplished at highest level got degree in every subject, winning trophies and medals like getting their daily bread. Turn out that even 7years old ar-mo girl speak English thousand times better than I do. Humiliation indeed.. Then something hit my head [I think it was the bird sh!t back then.. Anway]Ringing in my ears, telling me I gotta break this wall, I gotta get out from here and see the world! And I did! From that day on, just like the joker, I put a Smile on ma Face! Recently I just travel Europe continent. I think I did quite a huge progression already! Good thing I still got enough to buy biscuit the following day I'm back SIN. The point is I'm glad that I'm still able to find back alittle of myself.
1 thing I found out is that there never was a righteous or anguishing or fu*kingsh!tarse path. You only think those were bad or good. Who knows, it might be the path that you need in-order to grow and find your true-self. Still continuing searching, but atleast now I'm more confident and honest to myself.
Btw the moment you think that the route that you took turn out to be crap and want for a change, you already take a step into a path that you think its right. Good Luck walking it to your paradise. Maybe someday you can tell me is that really your right path?
sh!t so late now, I like writing a poem! Maybe you should give me this blog, like I need it more than you? lols!
Wait wait can I change? I want this poem to be beautiful. ahahaha!
ReplyDelete"The point is I'm glad that I'm still able to find back alittle of myself."
I would like to buy a
"Point is I found a brand new me!"
- You only think those were bad or good
I only explain if you take the bad part..
If you take the good part, lucky you, but it might turn out to be your greatest weakness during long run, unlucky u. =<