It's hard to explain. It's a feeling of panic and utter helplessness. I don't want to live its really painful and there's no joy in it at all. All I see in the adult world is pressure, stress, anxiety, coldness and pain. I just can't keep on like this any more. I have nobody at all. Nobody who can understand. This feeling of emptiness is so scary. i hate it so much. sometimes i just feel like using the future to cover the present bt i know its impossible uh? Has been like drinking these few days to release my pain . I also find myself thinking this more and more lately, it just feels so hard to continue but I know to anyone else it seems emo, But I am just finding myself so depressed and I can't even pinpoint an exact reason. I shouldn't have to feel depressed, I know people have it far worse than me and yet I feel alone with no purpose.
** Now then i realize you can never fall in love with someone whom you never laugh with.**
You say nobody understands how you feel, well i guess i'm nobody then.
ReplyDeleteEmptiness is really something hard to go through but it is something you have to live through.
I too use drinking to release my pain..
Just try your best to cheer up. :)
drinking only relief you from pain momentarily. Worse still, it makes you feel worse after drinking. You can head to the beach or hangout in a remote cafe. Take time off to just relax while enjoying the serenity of your surroundings. You will feel better then. Hope this helps. =)
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